Boy,
I find myself wondering why we are still together, although I am completely in love with you, we argue incessantly. I find myself grabbing at clothes and edges of tables just to keep myself from screaming out in frustration, I need you to listen to me. When I say something I know you're going to find upsetting, I don't do it to inflict pain, I do it because sometimes you need to know the reason I can't answer your call - my voice would crack and you would quiz me until you got the answer you were looking for, not the truth.
I love you, there is no two ways about that. Complete, irrevocable love. That can't be it though, can it? We can't cover all the cracks with love. My friends don't argue as much as we do, they titter at one another until 5minutes later everything is just peachy. Today our argument lasted 11hours 46minutes (excluding exam time). I wish you could see this for what it is, and who's causing these argument.s Your mother. Oh yes, the terribly cliché mother in law is the brunt of this bust up. Apparently I'm controlling and dictatorial, something I've never been called before. I agree, I do ask a lot of you but there's nothing wrong with that - I want you to be the best person you can possibly be and the only way to do that is to push you to your limits - I'm allowed to do that. I want you to get your job with Rolls Royce, but the only way to do that is sacrifice other things for your studies, something your Mother can't understand at the moment. Doesn't she want the best for you?
I've tried to say all of this to you today, but you've brushed it under the rug, afraid to see what's in front of you. Perhaps you don't like the confrontation, I don't know. Perhaps you disagree with me but are just too scared to say so, and to compensate you disregard everything I've said to make yourself feel better. That's more plausible. All I know is I can't continue on in this limbo argument world we seem to have made for ourselves. I need you to be straight with me, and honest for that matter. I need to understand your head and see your thoughts clearly, as though they were my own. Please help me do this.
Girl
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2 comments:
"You don't think I'm controlling, do you?" Would work fine. If he says no, then he agrees with you but doesn't want to argue with his mother. Or, he might be trying to avoid the conflict all together, in which case it would be best to go to his mother. She wants what's best for him too, and might see things from a different view. If he says yes, then....well, that speaks for itself.
That actually DOES sound a bit controlling. "I want you to be the best person you can be". That's not your place. HE needs to want to be that person, and if he doesn't, nothing you can do can change that.
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