I have been told that I am an 'old soul.' They mean it as a compliment, but from my point of view there are more complications. I feel like I am missing my soulmate, but because I am so young it's not like there is anybody who will take me seriously anyway. Well, that's not exeactly true. There is ONE person who listens to me and I feel like he understands me, but it just doesn't work between us. For the time being I will just have to survive as unattachedly as humanly possible and wait for the day I find my reason for living.
June 26, 2012
I don't know what to do anymore. My life feels empty, and all my feelings are numb. The numbness normally lasts for a while, then occasionally it catches up to me and a wave of depression overcomes me. These depressing periods last for about a week, where for about five or six days straight I will cry myself to sleep. And then it just goes away again, and the cycle repeats itself relentlessly. I really wish I was better at controlling myself and my own emotions, but in all honesty, not even I know the reason behind them.